He’s home!
Today at the end of his email he wrote ‘see you soon’, and I almost cried because this time it’s true.
Why can’t I stop eating cheese even when I know that I’m severely allergic to it?! So hot and itchy right now, but I can’t stop!
I’m getting so nervous for homecoming
what if we’ve both changed so much that we don’t like each other anymore?
I can’t believe how little time we have until he’s home.
I’m excited. I’m nervous. I’m a little scared.
We’ve been living separate lives for months now. I’m afraid that I’ve changed too much, that he’s changed too much. We have always had such an amazing connection between us, and I’m scared of losing that.
Nobody in my life right now knows my husband. They’ve never met him. He’s always been this mystery figure that I talk about, but they have no idea who he is. I’ve built this entire new life here in California and he hasn’t been a part of any of it.
I’m sure that once he steps off that boat and I see him, and touch him, and am finally able to just be with him, that all of my fears will just melt away, but right now I’m on pins and needles. Come on time, hurry it up already!
One of my favorite Dr. Cox quotes
“Relationships don’t work the way they do on television and in the movies. Will they? Won’t they? And then they finally do, and they’re happy forever. Gimme a break.
Nine out of ten of them end because they weren’t right for each other to begin with, and half of the ones who get married get divorced anyway, and I’m telling you right now, through all this stuff I have not become a cynic. I haven’t.
Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and, y’know, in some cultures, a chicken.
You can call me a sucker, I don’t care, because I do believe in it. Bottom line: couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don’t let it take them down.
One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time. If it’s right, and they’re real lucky, one of them will say something.”
Only a few weeks left, and I’m going out of my mind. There is suddenly so much to do and worry about.
